Well there's friendly friends and then there's like sincerely pained and miserable because you've hurt them and like maybe there's not that big a difference but I didn't actually have any friends in my life ever so this is literally the first time something like this happened to me . . . you were one of the first people I became friends with?! I didn't know . . . how . . . feelings . . .

[he's slowly going red, a little ashamed]