IC Continuations

[twindividualism]

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[Morning 69]

[twindividualism]

[from Here]

. . . Everyone interesting then. Whether they're interesting for a good reason or a bad one.

Re: [Night 68]

[completionism]

Wrong! Wrong. I like who I like and that's it! And I like different things about different people. And yeah sometimes the people I like have done shitty things. Like, I know that. I don't—think, oh hey, this person's a crazy sociopath, let's be friends! I don't like people getting hurt . . .

[twindividualism]

. . . Let's talk about something else.

[completionism]

I don't wanna just ignore it . . .!

[twindividualism]

What good is talking about it going to do? You're not going to change your mind.

[completionism]

I can't.

[twindividualism]

That's why there's no point in talking about it! It's just going to upset us both.

[completionism]

I don't understand how to move past it, though.

[twindividualism]

. . . I don't think we can.

[completionism]

But—

[twindividualism]

I know.

[completionism]

I don't know what to do.

[twindividualism]

I don't have any ideas either!

[completionism]

Well, fine, just don't leave m—

[fuck nnnhhh flops over onto the bed again]

[twindividualism]

I can't—I don't want to, but I need . . . someone who can listen to me. And not stop just because it feels inconvenient.

[completionism]

[almost near tears with frustration]

It's not about inconvenience!?

[twindividualism]

[No tears yet, but his voice is beginning to crack here and there]

Then what was it?!

[completionism]

I'm . . . not used to—people? Um . . . I was starting to become friends with you, and with him around the same time, so . . . it's not like I was deliberately trying to betray you! But by the time I got close to you it was already too late. And now I have two people I don't want to betray and I'm . . . stuck. Now that I really care, it's—I didn't realize. I was stupid and not good at this.

[twindividualism]

I-I thought we were friends. That was why I told you about him!

[completionism]

Well there's friendly friends and then there's like sincerely pained and miserable because you've hurt them and like maybe there's not that big a difference but I didn't actually have any friends in my life ever so this is literally the first time something like this happened to me . . . you were one of the first people I became friends with?! I didn't know . . . how . . . feelings . . .

[he's slowly going red, a little ashamed]

[twindividualism]

Just being friendly isn't friends! That's just—it's polite . . . but from our first meeting I thought—I . . .

Should I have said it? I'm . . . I'm not good at this either. I can't keep any friends . . .

[completionism]

[squishing Kaoru's face in both hands]

We're friends! We're . . . we're friends. Really, truly! And I won't let that change.

[twindividualism]

[puts his hands over Mikogami's, but he doesn't quite meet his eyes]

I—y-yes. I believe we are! I just—I'm . . . still scared of that guy.

[completionism]

Are you worried for you, or for me? Or both? Because I promise I can take care of myself.

[twindividualism]

Both? And other people you know.