Kaoru does not even know how to deal with Elliot. I mean, yes1 He knows how to navigate the minefield of talking with him pretty well, and he never feels threatened with him. He's comfortable in their relationship and is very grateful for the support and company he gets from it. He really would be much worse off than he is right now if he didn't have Elliot to cry on every now and then.
But he doesn't really get why Elliot is so determined to stay with him. He has been developing some serious self-hatred (some of which he isn't fully conscious of), so he just flat out can't see what Elliot sees in him. He doesn't feel like he's actually good enough for Elliot and never intended to stay with him (still doesn't intend it entirely, even after the latest thread), but every time Elliot insists that they stay together it chips away a little more at that resolve. It's very hard to let go of someone that doesn't want to let you go.
Especially when you basically adore them. He knows Elliot isn't perfect and that he can be an idiot about things, but he's seen enough of him to get a good look at how good-hearted and determined he is under his poor communication skills and overly aggressive personality. :') He loves the softer sides he gets to see and just thinks he's really completely adorable when you can get him to calm down. He admires his strength of conviction even if he makes fun of it from time to time, and he can appreciate his stance on things even though he hates it too and wishes he'd just murder something sometimes. Just have a self preservation instinct!!!
Basically he is very smitten with Elliot and doesn't really understand how he's been lucky enough to manage to keep him for this long.
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Kaoru does not even know how to deal with Elliot. I mean, yes1 He knows how to navigate the minefield of talking with him pretty well, and he never feels threatened with him. He's comfortable in their relationship and is very grateful for the support and company he gets from it. He really would be much worse off than he is right now if he didn't have Elliot to cry on every now and then.
But he doesn't really get why Elliot is so determined to stay with him. He has been developing some serious self-hatred (some of which he isn't fully conscious of), so he just flat out can't see what Elliot sees in him. He doesn't feel like he's actually good enough for Elliot and never intended to stay with him (still doesn't intend it entirely, even after the latest thread), but every time Elliot insists that they stay together it chips away a little more at that resolve. It's very hard to let go of someone that doesn't want to let you go.
Especially when you basically adore them. He knows Elliot isn't perfect and that he can be an idiot about things, but he's seen enough of him to get a good look at how good-hearted and determined he is under his poor communication skills and overly aggressive personality. :') He loves the softer sides he gets to see and just thinks he's really completely adorable when you can get him to calm down. He admires his strength of conviction even if he makes fun of it from time to time, and he can appreciate his stance on things even though he hates it too and wishes he'd just murder something sometimes. Just have a self preservation instinct!!!
Basically he is very smitten with Elliot and doesn't really understand how he's been lucky enough to manage to keep him for this long.
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