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[twindividualism]

Attempting any studying today is useless, so let's question meme instead! Ask me anything about my characters, playstyle, other rp related things, whateverrr. And then I'll ask things back and together we can entertain each other

Characters are: Gokudera/Nova at Thusia, Kaoru at Deco and Aather, and Yayoi everywhere because I can. Jabberwock and The Wood are my NPCs but I reserve the right to just be cryptic in replies to questions about them. :)

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[dormancy]

Tell me about me . . . Just Deco, I think.

[twindividualism]

Yayoi doesn't have a very strong impression of him yet, so she's defaulting to a teamy sense of "this is Cepheus's Saffron's we will look after it :U" That feeling's been boosted by Leo telling her Vincent is someone he knows. She likes Leo a lot! So she'll want even more to help out some poor voiceless guy that he knows. '^' She does think he's polite and will do her best to follow through on getting a way for him to communicate. Maybe working on a crude sign language for him if he can't write.

Kaoru is suspicious. :F Most of that is coming from what he saw of him in Leo's heart: creepy guy slicing up Leo and generally being a huge creepy McCreeperson. He also doesn't really buy losing his voice and losing his memories, and while he maaay accept the idea of a throat injury later on, it'll take some convincing for him to buy that story 100%. Right now he's more inclined to believe Vincent is a liar (though he doesn't believe that 100% either.

That said, he doesn't really have any indication that Vincent is dangerous. It's not like he thinks slicing heart!Leo up was completely out of the blue—he just thinks that may have been based on other factors and isn't going to believe right off the bat that Vincent is going to go around slicing people up like a maniac. Will exercise caution around him, but doesn't really fear him (and as such won't really warn people off him either, though he will keep a close eye on his relationship with people he likes)

I'd ask for reverse but I got that in plurk last night. :|a How is Vincent doing in general right now?

[nolongerslate]

Nova State of the Union?

Alternately, we sure have been getting a lot of Old Sbara refugees, huh?

[twindividualism]

Nova is in...as okay a place as he can manage to be right now. There's still a lot of really awful stuff weighing on him—he misses Excel and his team and still places a great deal of blame on himself for everything that went wrong with his Vongola. He misses Flowers. He hates the situation everyone's stuck in.

But. He's managed to move past that and figure out how to rely on the people around him more, and he's got his determination to keep moving on until he can find a way to get back home again. So he's pretty constantly miserable, but not without hope.

I would do something more in depth but I've been slacking on playing him too much... 8( Need to get him out more.

How's Zel doing?

[witheyesofgold]

How we doin' post-heart and all?

[twindividualism]

SO CONFUSED.

He is still very sure Leo hates him because that is obviously what Leo does. He doesn't really understand how they're able to have conversations and doesn't think they're really a normal thing, even if they may have decided to start over or whatever happened in the last thread they had before hearts. He just really does not understand.

He still likes Leo in a way. Leo's crazy and potentially dangerous and stupid and full of bad decisions, but like I've said before, he's also the first person Kaoru saw as an actual friend and source of support and he really misses that a lot. :( WHY CAN'T WE JUST BE COOL AGAIN!! He's feeling even more like that after lonely Leo's crying fit—wanting to get back to just being friends again, but he's just too wary and uncertain to really just go into that whole heartedly.

Also he's a huge manipulative jerkface himself so that doesn't help.

Basically wants to be friends and believes Leo does now, but they've both kicked each other too many times to just trust that they aren't going to keep doing it. :') But at least on Kaoru's end the chances of earning that trust back are higher than they've been in a long time.

If I need to clarify anywhere lemme know, otherwise reverse!

[glorious]

How's Kaoru feeling about Aather atm?

[twindividualism]

AATHER IS TERRIBLE AND HE HATES IT

KEYS ARE TERRIBLE
PERSONAE ARE TERRIBLE
HEART GAMES ARE TERRIBLE

he likes the people okay but he outright loathes the place and the setting, and as things are right now he doesn't even believe the darkness is a thing at all. His experience in the plot event just didn't leave him with the impression that the darkness was a serious threat. The keys and the effects of taking his off were much more frightening, and everything he's been able to find out since then has just made him question personae and their motives even more.

He's been reading Flynn's journals (a-and I need to actually find the time to read through plot stuff) and is staaaarting to shift view a little, but overall he still thinks the personae are a huge threat no matter what and every bit as dangerous as any other threat here. :')

He is exceptionally frustrated with how accepting most people he's spoken to seem to be about it. Just does not even approach understanding their position or why they're okay just doing nothing until some magical solution falls into their laps. SO FED UP \o/

I'm curious about Selenia's thoughts too, so reverse?

[havesomedecency]

Do you liek me y/n?

[twindividualism]

how do you even exiiiiist /sad crying penguin

Kaoru does not even know how to deal with Elliot. I mean, yes1 He knows how to navigate the minefield of talking with him pretty well, and he never feels threatened with him. He's comfortable in their relationship and is very grateful for the support and company he gets from it. He really would be much worse off than he is right now if he didn't have Elliot to cry on every now and then.

But he doesn't really get why Elliot is so determined to stay with him. He has been developing some serious self-hatred (some of which he isn't fully conscious of), so he just flat out can't see what Elliot sees in him. He doesn't feel like he's actually good enough for Elliot and never intended to stay with him (still doesn't intend it entirely, even after the latest thread), but every time Elliot insists that they stay together it chips away a little more at that resolve. It's very hard to let go of someone that doesn't want to let you go.

Especially when you basically adore them. He knows Elliot isn't perfect and that he can be an idiot about things, but he's seen enough of him to get a good look at how good-hearted and determined he is under his poor communication skills and overly aggressive personality. :') He loves the softer sides he gets to see and just thinks he's really completely adorable when you can get him to calm down. He admires his strength of conviction even if he makes fun of it from time to time, and he can appreciate his stance on things even though he hates it too and wishes he'd just murder something sometimes. Just have a self preservation instinct!!!

Basically he is very smitten with Elliot and doesn't really understand how he's been lucky enough to manage to keep him for this long.

Reverse!

[twindifference]

Do you like meeee?

[twindividualism]

no u smell

[twindividualism]

okay Kaoru adores Hikaru. He doesn't actually remember a lot (though it's a lot more than Hikaru does), but several of the memories he's gotten back were very intense "I miss my bro" memories. That coupled with remembering and experiencing a lot of terrible things has led to him feeling very protective. He knows Hikaru is incredibly important to him, and he knows how awful things can be and wants better for him!! Bro please don't get blackmailed with terror like I did :(

He's also pretty worried about Hikaru and Leo too though. He's got a complex over most people he speaks with siding with Leo in the original trainwreck, and the few who did side in a way that wasn't heavily colored with "dude calm down it was no big deal" with him were, like, Mint. Not the most upstanding source of support. :') He knows that Hikaru said he'd support him and that it was okay to be angry, but seeing how he interacted with Leo after that conversation has pretty much undermined that conversation. :') HIKARU IS OVER IT SO I SHOULD BE OVER IT but he's not over it at all!!1 And is afraid Hikaru will just run off with Leo into the sunset because everyone thinks Leo is so great and they were dating or married before so what does it matter how he felt because it's not like anyone cares about that or anything!!!

So. Yes. The trainwreck is still exploding a little on that sector of things. :'D But for the most part he ignores that (super healthy) in favor of thinking very hard about destroying anything that hurts Hikaru. :') Though he is pretty likely to bring it up to him if there's an opening thanks to a recent memory he took.

Reverse!

[sparklyrichbastard]

♥ love meeee :U ♥

[twindividualism]

Tamaki dere is pretty high at this point! He's still a traumatized and irritable teenage boy though, so there are potholes, but overall he's comfortable enough with him to start to really value their relationship. And things right now are still a little shaky since they had such a rocky start in the games, but a combination of going through so much together and getting back the memories he has are starting to level things out.

He really doesn't know what he'd do without Tamaki on Shell. He needs that constant source of support! Sure he can get it from Elliot or Hikaru too, but there's a lot to be said for being able to walk one room over and just flop into Tamaki's bed because nightmares are keeping him from sleeping well. (That happens pretty much all the time by now :'D) And, for all that he tries to talk Tamaki into being more ruthless, he does in a way appreciate having him as a moral center to keep the team from going completely off the rails. He's pretty frightened of what he could be doing if not for all Tamaki's objections. :') And he really wants to protect that shoujotastic purehearted trust in everything that breathes. It's just sometimes a problem when he decides protecting it means excommunicating Lilac or that he might need to get between March's knives and Tamaki's face or something.

Basically will do just about anything for Tamaki even if it means making Tamaki angry. It's for your own good, idiot lord :U

Reverse~

[blackjacked]

Aather Kaoru's thoughts on heart games now that he's been through one |Da

[twindividualism]

THEY ARE THE WORST AND HE HATES THEM. He is seriously revolted by the idea. It didn't really hit him until Shark was like "Imma go do something about all that fake smiling he does" and Kaoru was like "oh you mean like I do all the—ohmygodwait" It also struck him that changing the way a person chooses to express themselves is just . . . vile. It's changing a person forcibly because you think you know better and that's just a hideous thing to do. :')

He still won't mind things like cleaning up a messy area because he's bright enough to figure that is organizing someone's thoughts or issues into a way they can deal with it better, and following instructions or indications areas of the heart give (like the phoenix getting excited over the candles) wouldn't bother him either. But actions outside of those like breaking down a wall or dousing a flame somewhere without any prompting from the heart is just going to be something he can't stand. :')

What are Kit's thoughts on Kaoru in Deco?

[420everydeath]

RELATIONSHIP MEME ME with Yayoi and Katou in Aather and Thusia, and Kaoru with Nick in Aather.

[twindividualism]

AATHER she is so angry and hurt. >'( She can't even believe he'd not only go and sleep with a nightmare causing jerk but that he kept it hidden from her for so long. She still adores him! And values his friendship a lot! But that's why it hurts so much. She trusted him and then he did this. Bro how could you :( :(

THUSIA there really hasn't been a change. She will still chew the face off anyone who hurts him, pretty much loves him, etc. It's still more a friendly form of love, a little like they're in a friends with benefits situation, but she's thoroughly happy with it.

Kaoru just has a ton of guilty feelings towards Nick. He's been trying to avoid him when he can because he can't quite bring himself to face him just yet. :') Logically he knows that it's not his fault, but since when do people operate on logic? He does like him alright! He appreciates that Nick isn't blaming him and both understands why and thinks it's a sign that he's a good person, but that's about the extent of his impression since he's being avoidant.

Reverse.

[aibrou]

do u liek me :( im cool right

[crueltobekind]

Yes! For a while Kaoru was in a pretty deep funk, particularly around the time he plastered Leo's secrets all over the wall. (He was trying to entertain himself on some level with that stunt.) So when he got such a strong negative reaction from literally everyone he kind of amplified each individual reaction and gave it more meaning and weight than they probably really had which is why he was so uneasy around Yosuke during Leo's heart. He'd worked himself up into thinking he'd ruined everything forever!!!!!! But then Yosuke was himself and pretty much killed that notion entirely. He's still a little confused by it but is coming around to the idea that maybe he's being a little bit ridiculous in some of his assumptions.

He does appreciate Yosuke calling him out on being a huge reckless jerk with the graffiti stunt. It WAS a careless move, and he might not have entirely realized it until Celeste actually showed up if Yosuke hadn't been blunt with him about it. :'D It was a negative response, but it was one he could understand. He also won points for not just beating around the bush to work up to it, he was clear pretty quick.

That aside, he plain just likes Yosuke. He's fun to tease and doesn't seem like a person who takes it to heart when he's picked on. He's important to Teddy and in turn clearly has a soft spot for Teddy himself. Kaoru isn't especially attached to Teddy himself, but he can recognize that Ted's a good guy, so someone who cares about him is going to win points based on that alone.

He also thinks Yosuke has . . . kind of a good head on his shoulders . . . Thinks he's better able to deal with the more brutal things Deco can throw at people in games (in comparison to Shell's more delicate members) and views him as someone more capable than himself. The kind of guy he might consider getting advice from for certain situations. Even if he's kind of a clueless loser at times.

Reverse?

[acquest]

HEY KAORU so you find out Shark has his mark on Sion and Tamaki's been sympathetic and offered to let him stay in Shell if he ever needs it: HOW DOES THAT GO?

[crueltobekind]

LEAVES

Likely it would only be temporary, but in any scenario that involves finding out Shark has an invite into Shell he will flat out leave and go stay with Sage and/or Iris until he's assured Shark won't be invading his home any time soon. His reaction to finding out Sion's been tattooed would be a meltdown panic of crying all over Sion and hating Shark and the whole story about Shark forcing him to get the tattoo exploding out. So that would be fun. :')

Does Shark have any specific plans for Kaoru or Sion now that he's free of his contract with March?

[worlddomination]

hi hi are we still friends

[tsuncience]

Kaoru > March and Yayoi > Mister