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Attempting any studying today is useless, so let's question meme instead! Ask me anything about my characters, playstyle, other rp related things, whateverrr. And then I'll ask things back and together we can entertain each other

Characters are: Gokudera/Nova at Thusia, Kaoru at Deco and Aather, and Yayoi everywhere because I can. Jabberwock and The Wood are my NPCs but I reserve the right to just be cryptic in replies to questions about them. :)

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no u smell

okay Kaoru adores Hikaru. He doesn't actually remember a lot (though it's a lot more than Hikaru does), but several of the memories he's gotten back were very intense "I miss my bro" memories. That coupled with remembering and experiencing a lot of terrible things has led to him feeling very protective. He knows Hikaru is incredibly important to him, and he knows how awful things can be and wants better for him!! Bro please don't get blackmailed with terror like I did :(

He's also pretty worried about Hikaru and Leo too though. He's got a complex over most people he speaks with siding with Leo in the original trainwreck, and the few who did side in a way that wasn't heavily colored with "dude calm down it was no big deal" with him were, like, Mint. Not the most upstanding source of support. :') He knows that Hikaru said he'd support him and that it was okay to be angry, but seeing how he interacted with Leo after that conversation has pretty much undermined that conversation. :') HIKARU IS OVER IT SO I SHOULD BE OVER IT but he's not over it at all!!1 And is afraid Hikaru will just run off with Leo into the sunset because everyone thinks Leo is so great and they were dating or married before so what does it matter how he felt because it's not like anyone cares about that or anything!!!

So. Yes. The trainwreck is still exploding a little on that sector of things. :'D But for the most part he ignores that (super healthy) in favor of thinking very hard about destroying anything that hurts Hikaru. :') Though he is pretty likely to bring it up to him if there's an opening thanks to a recent memory he took.

Reverse!

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While Hikaru hasn't taken the memories quite yeeeeet, I'm going to go in assuming what will happen when he does take them because they're significant enough! The memory mashup of Kit's arrival and Wako's heart game is going to give him such a possessiveness boost and the one he got after that isn't going to help much.

Before he had any memories of Kaoru, he was already kind of secretly protective of him because Kaoru was able to say the right sort of things when he needed it, showed attention when Hikaru wanted it, obviously showed how much he cared, etc. etc. But he will remember Kaoru well and it's a memory where he's very much in sync with Kaoru (esp. with their feelings and their protectiveness with Tamaki) and that means he's going to be even MORE protective.

On the other hand, he also remembers people keeping secrets from him in Aather, ty coral, AND BTW he kind of hates it a lot. :') And he darn well knows Kaoru is hiding stuff from him! Buuuut he's starting to understand why Kaoru hides some things considering the people Kaoru has chosen to trust and the way they return that trust \(unsure)/ Your life is so hard, bro.

If Kaoru knew what his wish was, would he consider all of this worth it for that wish?

Yes. His wish will effectively undo all of EC which would mean he and his Hikaru never get separated, and that's so unbelievably important. His Hikaru at one point said he wished he could die so he and Kaoru could be the same again. :') And there is just a lot of really vicious angst over having been separated and how Kaoru went through experiences Hikaru didn't. (It could go both ways but it doesn't because Kaoru is a huge idiot for Hikaru \:D/)

What might be a problem now is that erasing EC would mean erasing ever meeting Elliot, so he might want to revise it a little so he can still have the opportunity to know him somehow.

What would Hikaru think of the whole EC situation and resulting mess?

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ... :'D

THERE WILL PROBABLY BE A LOT OF HIM SHIFTING THE BLAME ONTO HIMSELF FOR ONE. I mean I don't recall but I am pretty sure at the point I took him from, he had been in Aather for aaabout five months? That's five months of him being separated from Kaoru, and as far as he knows, Kaoru has been by himself during that time. So in a way, it'll be like "oh ok, I guess while I was off having sorta fun in Aather, Kaoru has been miserable. :'|"

But then there's the whole other mess of I AM NOT KAORU'S HIKARU and that will make him freak out in a whole different level. I mean existential crisis aside, there's another Kaoru in sabraather who is possibly still there. And so far nothing in Deco has even come close to the terror he has experienced from that vore game, not even Clover and Frayed's game. \o/; Because while he was scared, he didn't blue screen as hard as he did while watching Aquarius's implosion.

HE'LL JUST WANT A LOT OF CONFIRMATION AFTERWARDS THAT KAORU STILL LOVES HIM AND NOT JUST BECAUSE HE HAPPENS TO BE ANOTHER HIKARU and will probably throw an intense fit. :'|

How solid is Kaoru's grasp on the idea that Hikaru might not be "his Hikaru" anyway?

Nnnnot very. He's beginning to get a vague suspicion, but it's very minor and not entirely on a conscious level. If he thinks about it he knows there's something kind of off between the idea of Hikaru in magical drugtrip space and Hikaru in Aather—he doesn't get why Dragonfly wouldn't have any memory at all of Wandering Stars when it was obviously an intensely emotional stay there. (And, I mean, a memory of it that he would've shared with Kaito. SOMEONE should know something about it given the severe levels of distress he remembers in relation to it, but no one's given him any indication that they know anything about it.)

But it's early on in memory regains and he doesn't really know Kit or Leo well enough to judge if they'd be keeping information about it from him or not. Add into that all the trainwrecking he's been dealing with and his focus on Hikaru and worrying about people other than himself and it's just not something that's really on his mind right now. His focus is elsewhere, but if he gets back more memories about EC or WS it's going to set him wondering more and more about it.

How's Hikaru doing in Aather right now?

Edited 2013-02-05 14:24 (UTC)

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